Spiritualism and the Spiritualist Church.
Now let me state for starters, I am not a bible thumping Pharisee or a zealot blinded by his own version of God's law. I was once a spiritualist and a working medium/healer.
I am relatively new to God and Christ. If you've read the introduction page you'll know this. In my time I've searched for the truth. In every nook and dark cranny I've lingered trying to understand the universe and what I'm doing here. I need to tell you a bit about myself so you'll understand.
I wan born of an American Father and English mother so my upbringing was between the England and the US. My Father was a sextant (cleaner) for a while for the local Lutheran church in Pennsylvania. My Father being typically enthusiastic ensured that I not only helped clean the church but attended Sunday service and Sunday school after. The Pastor was a kindly man but his flock were of the usual blue collar types indicative of a small American town. I was baptized at 9 years old into the Lutheran church. Church for a boy that loved play and friends was sheer murder. I hated every Sunday and after a while decided to be so objectionable that they'd throw me out. Big mistake! My Father, who was a firm believer of spare the rod and spoil the child, gave me the hiding of my young life. This obviously didn't endear me to the church, or it too me.
Just before my 11th birthday. My Mother got homesick and told my Father she wanted to go home. Our departure from what I came to consider home was a great wrench but my Father moved us every where so I had learned to become adaptable very early in life. I was however relieved not to have to go to church EVER again!!! Now my Mother had displayed psychic abilities early in her life and where ever we settled she invariably became the family seer. So my path was clear. I hated the church and was intrigued by what she had. When we arrived in London we stayed with family until we had our own place.
One evening shortly after our arrival my Uncle to my Mother and Father to a special meeting. I later found out that this was a spiritualist church. My brother or I were not allowed to go. We were too young but I so much wanted to learn more. So there you have it, an angry pubescent growing into adulthood hating the church and knowing that there must be a better way. I knew that there was more to life. I could feel it and I wanted to learn more.
Ripe pickings for Satan and his minions. I investigated everything that offered intrigue and could help quell this burning desire inside me. I read endlessly on Atlantis and Lumuria. I discovered Edgar Cayce, the sleeping profit, and literally engorged myself on his readings. UFO's and aliens, the Bermuda Triangle, Egypt, South America, Greece. You name it, I've researched it but it all still left me with the unquenchable thirst for knowledge I'd not yet uncovered.
Eventually through the uncle that introduced my parents to Spiritualism came my introduction. I was cynical and researched this early in my quest but it didn't seem to hold what I was looking for. I was at a low point in my life and decided that there was nothing on the horizon so I'd try it. I spend nearly three years at the sanctuary, as spiritualist called their churches. I eventually became a working medium and healer with the church conducting meetings and readings on a regular basis. I found most of the people like minded but there was a desperate air to some of them. They needed proof of afterlife and they saw spiritualism as a way to get it. All that I met were caring, loving people that life had dealt a bit of a critical hand. Unfortunately there are those who know this and exploit them.
I was so into Spiritualism that I attended the College of Psychic Studies in London. This was to help me sharpen my skills and try and get some consistency to my "gift". I was under the tutelage of Ivy Northage, a renowned British medium. What I anticipated and what I found were so different. The whole thing seemed "wham, bam, thank you Mam". I was having some difficulties with this clinical approach and Ivy actually said "make something up and the juices will start flowing". In the end, I decided that I missed my Friends at the Lileth and resigned my position. I think that the rot started here that lead to me leaving Spiritualism.
God can talk to you directly, all you have to do is ask and listen. Not with your mind but your heart. God will not send a deceased Chinese philosopher or a red Indian warrior. These are deceptions and dangerous ones at that. These are not from God, they are from Satan. Evident truths are initially available and it seems like the answer. I took Spiritualism to be a direct line to God without the crap of a church. I was wrong.
These evident truths soon start to disappear for grander schemes that offer you what seems great power and control. That could not be further from the truth. God may now and again use this channel but it was put there to turn you away from him and Jesus. To pray to demons masking as helpers. To sing special hymns to them asking for divine guidance. Do not be fooled. Just feel it. Feel that there is almost a murky, dirty under lying feeling to the whole thing. Then after a relative short time life will get harder, darker and more intensively miserable. Everyday will feel like a trudge and your health will start to suffer. Your counsellors or guides will tell you that this is negativity and you must me in a bad place. Or worse, God and the Spirits and testing your for something greater. CRAP!!! You are now deep in the grasps of demons. You have become their primary source of food. Your life force is feeding them and they're loving every minute of it. I was once in this trap, listen to the converted. I did not find the bible or god right away, it was another 15 years before I finally found the truth
They will tell you that Jesus was a medium too! You can find his path through them. Let's dispell that myth, Jesus was God incarnate not a medium. Ouija Boards are finally recognised as a real danger, a conduit to invite these things into your life. Spiritualists used these up to 40 years ago as a tool for communication. It was only the film the Exorcist that showed the true dangers. You have abilities that God gave you, use them to find him not demons and dark angels.
You have three choices, make no mistake! These will be choices offered to you and at some level whether intellectually or emotionally you will make it. One cold day in the depths of your misery as you wander corridors of your life lost and confused, you will realise that something is not right. In that moment will come clarity, a beckon shining like a bright light will shine upon you. Now's the time for your choice, will you...
1. Dismiss this as folly and continue down your chosen path in the new age.
Dismiss this light as your weakening belief in what you have become and reassess what you are doing. No, you will not, you'll see this as affirmation that you're on the right path, despite what your feelings are telling you. Soon the light will fade and you'll go deeper into the dark path. You'll shun friends and family that try to tell you you are wrong. You'll stop going out and only venture past the doorway to work and another circle. You'll become insular and introspective. Short tempered and finding the realm of sleep no comfort.
Why? Strange dreams, nightmares and when you wake in the morning, you'll be even more fatigued than the night before. Why? Because you let these things into your life. You welcomed them, you pray to them, beseech council from them and revere them.
I pray that you wake up to this before your next choice.
2. The rapid decent to madness
By Now your feeling constantly exhausted, depressed and lost in your misery. Your friends and guides at the circle will tell you you are being tested for a greater purpose. As the days elapse, you get worse, you health is now starting to be effected. These dreams at night and starting to become clear instead of dark blurry images you start to see deamons staring at laughing at you. Only for seconds but you start to see them. You become aware of being watched, that you are not alone in the dark bedroom of your life. You are now so tired that just the thought of getting out of bed in the morning is almost too much. Your life is darkness, you only see how unworthy you and now suicide comes to your mind. The thought that with one act this could all be over. The darkness will become. The misery finished.
If you have are reading this and something in you has drawn you here. Take heed, it's still not to late. You have one last chance to break free. Just renounce the path and look for God. But do not look in the realm of men or women. Just pray now that you want a relationship direct with God and his son. Ask for help and make an affirmation. With me it was picking up a bible and promising to read it cover to cover and learn about him. Your heart will tell you what you have to do.
The change won't be immediate but it will come, in a tiny march of days things will start to clear, become tolerable. Just keep up with whatever affirmation you made on a regular routine, with me it was a page a day. Over the coming weeks things will get better. Your health will return but keep up your affirmation. Do not be like so many others that once the going get good, you get going. These things are still watching from a distance, waiting for you to fall back. If this happens, death will surely follow.
3. Have faith in your feelings.
Many choose this path, they do not yet see where they must go but they know that this is not for them. Such was my case but not after nearly being pulled back into the darkness by my family. Just try this. Seek out God and Jesus. Ask for help and he will answer you. In the beginning it will feel strange. The things that are feeding off you, do not want this. They will do all possible to divert you from this course. I knew many spiritualist that actively attended circle and also regularly read the Bible. You now have to appeciate that this is about your soul and you can not have both. Renounce your path and commit to God and Jesus. He will send the Holy Spirit to protect you and your loved ones. All you have to do is commit to him and aks for protection for you and you loved ones.
Once you decide on this course of action, you will soon start to see the true nature of your guides and helpers from the Spirit world.
My Mother now believes that the children that she miscarried earlier in life have grown up in the spirit world and now fight evil as some elite Samurai force. She's even named them, Ernest, Terry, Anthony, Elizabeth and Gladys. Joining them is a character called Mr. D, An old lover from a life in Georgian times and of course her Father, who died when she was 3 years old. She even channels something called the Goddess of Love. She, my Aunt and Brother are now deeply entrenched in this dark fantasy. I am regarded as evil and a malcontent for pointing out these evident truths. This about it, why would God send a Pagan goddess to channel through my Mother? No, he wouldn't! That's what Jesus is here for. Do not be fooled, Think for yourself and get out before you do yourself more harm. Listen to one whose made those mistakes.
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