She Finally Came
It's been a long hard road but true love finally came. I gave up my search and reconciled myself to the life I had chosen. I was finally free of the past and starting to enjoy what I had. I gave up my search for my true love and was pretty much settled on the fact that I would be alone save for the normal relationships one goes through in life, partners that touch us and go on their way. Then one day, out of the blue, I got an email complimenting me on this site from a lady I thought was American. There was something about the email that kept drawing me back to read it. The site had been up about 7 months and I'd gotten emails from people before asking advise. I eventually replied 3 days later. I can't explain why but something kept drawing me back to her email. Call it a feeling, I still dont know today.
Within a week startling parallels in our lives started to emerge. Suddely emails were not enough, I need to hear her voice. I persuaded her to let me call her and she gave me her telephone number. One Sunday monring I drew up the courage and called. I was so glad I did, the connection was almost immediate. Before we knew what was happening, there was Love. It was not an invasion or a surrender, it just happened naturally. This is the final part of your healing. Giving your unconditional trust to your One.
Vivienne fills no holes in me, or I her. There are none. Together doors open in us that were closed a long time ago. Old dreams and aspirations suddenly flood in and start working. I hope that at the end you find your happiness either alone or with your soul mate. If you've walked the path I chose, then I pray that it ends as happily and mine..
The greatest door that opened in me was that I finally believed in myself again. It's been a long, long time since I've felt that. Below is the poem that Vivienne wrote to me and my reply - So many parallels. I have never felt so at one with anybody in my life...
It's the man I have sought who has learned from his past
and my questing is done for I have found him at last.
Alive with the joy times before merely dreamt,
at last spying my love and now hoping is spent:
For promises once seeming so empty and worn
long held as my reason to keep hanging on
are now distant echoes with all of their pain
and gone are the aching nights I have lain.
In torment and agony, seeking your face.
For all that remains is to take up my place;
In the physical world , to cross the divide
and be wholly complete in being at your side.
Yes my love, I have learned from my past
enough to know that much doesn't last
but we have sought through all life's pain
our souls ever knowing we'd join once again.
And Now the time has finally come,
'tis easy to fear this too can't be won;
Yet deep inside, from aeons before
We know the truth that rests at our core.
One last battle, one final short while
and there the reward for the hard-run mile.
Time to forget the pain we have known
Time to release what logic has shown.
Time to believe the miracle's won
and rejoice in the knowledge, we soon will be One.
copyright: Vivienne Simmons 2003 - 2008
Well that's my story, How I found happiness, or rather, it found me. We met feel in Love and married on a beach in Durban South Africa in November 2004.
  
I've learned so much since those first creeping suspicions that started all this off 3 years ago, discovering God the person and not the judge, to my union with Vivienne. I pray that you path ends with such happiness. Ours? we have the rest of our lives. Thank you Lord, thank you Father.
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